Agnostic_Alexa is Dying_Atheis, I'm Just The Catalyst...!!!

DAY ONE :


Agnostic_Alexa: what's up

allez neva: gak ada, hanya eternit saja *sambil liat ke langit2*

allez neva: dan lampu

allez neva: hehehehe

allez neva:

allez neva: btw, abis dari mana cinta?

allez neva: hwahahahahahahaha

allez neva:

Agnostic_Alexa: abis jalan sama mantan

Agnostic_Alexa: seremonial putus

Agnostic_Alexa: ya udah, putus, Sayang

allez neva: ouch!!!!

allez neva: ups!!!!

Agnostic_Alexa: it's ok

Agnostic_Alexa: it's ok

allez neva: sebenarnya ada apa sih diantara hidup dan mati itu?

Agnostic_Alexa: for my case

Agnostic_Alexa: there's emptiness

Agnostic_Alexa: and confusion

Agnostic_Alexa: and a lot of pain

Agnostic_Alexa: a lot of joy

allez neva: hmm, negative nya 3 (emptyness,confusion,pain)

allez neva: positifnya 1 (joy)

allez neva: cari atuh 2 or lebih lagi positifnya

allez neva: seperti : laughter

allez neva: happiness

Agnostic_Alexa: I can't

allez neva: somebody who loves you 4 who you are

allez neva: know you and want to know you deeper and deeper

allez neva: somebody who can reach your pleasure

allez neva: i know somebody can do it for you, and your duty is to find that person

allez neva:

Agnostic_Alexa: i don't care

allez neva: kenapa?

Agnostic_Alexa: i don't care...

Agnostic_Alexa: I want to die tonight

allez neva: yah...jangan dulu...

allez neva: kemeja hitam gw lagi dipinjem temen...

Agnostic_Alexa: I'm sick with life

Agnostic_Alexa: I'm sick with pain

Agnostic_Alexa: I don't want to face another day

allez neva: celana hitam gw belum kering

Agnostic_Alexa: wear pink. it's cute.

allez neva: maunya sih warna ungu

allez neva: motifnya polkadot warna warni

allez neva: mantaps....

allez neva: Al........

allez neva: something bothering you?

allez neva: ceritakanlah padaku...

allez neva: Al...u there...?

Agnostic_Alexa: there's 10 pills in front of me

Agnostic_Alexa: 200 gr Setraline HCL. Not bad.

Agnostic_Alexa: if I'm saved

Agnostic_Alexa: would they get mad?

Agnostic_Alexa: would he get mad?

allez neva: ya...

allez neva: hanya sebentar....

allez neva: setelah itu kamu akan dilupakan

Agnostic_Alexa: they have, right?

Agnostic_Alexa: they have forgotten me

allez neva: just dont do that ok...

allez neva: please...

Agnostic_Alexa: to look life in the face, to know it for what it is...

Agnostic_Alexa: to know it, to love it...

Agnostic_Alexa: and then

Agnostic_Alexa: to put it away...

Agnostic_Alexa: -The Hours, suicide note

allez neva: let God put it

allez neva: not you....

allez neva: just hold on

allez neva: dont go

allez neva: please

Agnostic_Alexa: I can't, Allez

Agnostic_Alexa: I don't want to face a life like this

allez neva: fight that feeling

Agnostic_Alexa: a life where I lose everything

allez neva: i'm with you.............

allez neva: hidup adalah kehilangan dan perolehan

Agnostic_Alexa: I lose too much

allez neva: ada waktunya kita kehilangan sesuatu

Agnostic_Alexa: I want to wake up from this bad dream

Agnostic_Alexa: I want to be happy, for God sake

Agnostic_Alexa: is it too much, God?

Agnostic_Alexa: is it too much?

allez neva: this bad dream is just a phase of your life

Agnostic_Alexa: I've cut my hand, I've eaten pills, why couldn't I be happy, God?

Agnostic_Alexa: I want to die...

allez neva: coz that not the way you find your happiness, Al...

Agnostic_Alexa: my ex-boyfriend's Y!M is Dying_Atheis

Agnostic_Alexa: if there's something happened to me

Agnostic_Alexa: please tell him that it's not his fault

allez neva: lantas salah siapa?

Agnostic_Alexa: it's my fault

Agnostic_Alexa: for being someone weak

allez neva: kamu tidak bahagia salah siapa?

allez neva: kamu menjadi seperti ini salah siapa?

Agnostic_Alexa: but don't contact him

Agnostic_Alexa: if there's no sign from me. if I'm still online tomorrow. if I don't die.

Agnostic_Alexa: let's throw the dice

allez neva: dont do that, Al….

Agnostic_Alexa: spin the roulette

Agnostic_Alexa: it'll stop somewhere between

Agnostic_Alexa: life and death

Agnostic_Alexa: "sometimes I feel, like I don't belong anywhere...

Agnostic_Alexa: it's gonna take a long for me to get somewhere

Agnostic_Alexa: sometimes I feel so heavy-hearted

Agnostic_Alexa: well I can't explain

Agnostic_Alexa: coz I'm so guarded

Agnostic_Alexa: that's a lonely road to travel


Agnostic_Alexa: and a heavy load to bear

Agnostic_Alexa: and it's a long long way to heaven

Agnostic_Alexa: and all I got to get there...

Agnostic_Alexa: Alicia Keys - Prelude to a Kiss

Agnostic_Alexa: don't contact him now

allez neva: Al........

Agnostic_Alexa: don't make him worry

Agnostic_Alexa: let's see

Agnostic_Alexa: what would happen to me

allez neva: he will not worry

Agnostic_Alexa: tomorrow

Agnostic_Alexa: trust me

Agnostic_Alexa: trust me

allez neva: he will not give a damn care

allez neva: its useless...

Agnostic_Alexa: just promise me

allez neva: unworthed

Agnostic_Alexa: to wait for me tomorrow

allez_neva: okay, I’ll wait for you then…


DAY TWO :


Agnostic_Alexa: I'm sorry

allez neva: untuk?

Agnostic_Alexa: nothing

Agnostic_Alexa: lagi ngapain kau

allez neva: hehe..

allez neva: *pura2 gak tau*

allez neva: lagi mencari ilham...

Agnostic_Alexa: awesome

allez neva: hmm...

Agnostic_Alexa: what ilham

allez neva: ilham anaknya pak toto

allez neva: wakkakakakakaka

Agnostic_Alexa: no, what ilham are you searching for

allez neva: gw mau nulis tapi entahlah...

Agnostic_Alexa: awesome

Agnostic_Alexa: type something

Agnostic_Alexa: don't think

Agnostic_Alexa: it's later

Agnostic_Alexa: if I'm not mistaken

Agnostic_Alexa: that status of yours

Agnostic_Alexa: from Angel Sanctuary right

allez neva: iya...

Agnostic_Alexa: ok, make a story about a clockwork angel

Agnostic_Alexa: that would be cool

allez neva: hahahahaha...

Agnostic_Alexa: I'm surprised you like that kind of series

Agnostic_Alexa: Angel Sanctuary is a controversial one

allez neva: i'm not a clokwork angel, i'm a necessary evil

Agnostic_Alexa: evil? you speak with the right girl

Agnostic_Alexa: LOL

allez neva: yup, kata temen gw komik atheis

Agnostic_Alexa: yeah

Agnostic_Alexa: so why do you still like it

allez neva: gw bilang aja ke dia: "BAKA!!!!"

Agnostic_Alexa: Baka itu buat bangun rumah ya. Batu baka

Agnostic_Alexa: apa sih Al

allez neva: abisnya, klo gw baca serial cantik, ntar heboh lagi

allez neva: hoho

Agnostic_Alexa: itu kan bukan serial cantik

Agnostic_Alexa: kenapa lo gak mau blg itu komik atheis

allez neva: hmm...

allez neva: entahlah

allez neva: buat gw komik ya komik

allez neva: gak perlu diambil serius

allez neva: no nee to argue lah

Agnostic_Alexa: ok

allez neva: btw, rada kaget juga gw baca sms loe tadi

allez neva: makes me wondering

Agnostic_Alexa: apanya

allez neva: ya gitu deh

allez neva: perubahan isi sms nya

Agnostic_Alexa: apa itu

allez neva: lha?

Agnostic_Alexa: gw lagi baca ulang SMSnya

Agnostic_Alexa: oh

Agnostic_Alexa: udah sadar sekarang?

allez neva: sadar dari?

Agnostic_Alexa: now you get the rule

allez neva: what rule?

Agnostic_Alexa: you say you want to stay by my side

allez neva: yup

Agnostic_Alexa: you have to know what you'll get

Agnostic_Alexa: you may drown in my insanity

Agnostic_Alexa: and I don't want that

Agnostic_Alexa: so

Agnostic_Alexa: if you want to stay with me

Agnostic_Alexa: my first rule is

Agnostic_Alexa: stay sane

Agnostic_Alexa: please

allez neva: i know

Agnostic_Alexa: if you became somebody you're not,

Agnostic_Alexa: I've warned you

allez neva: i know

Agnostic_Alexa: hell

Agnostic_Alexa: I don't want to take anyone into my world

allez neva: I’ll try ok

Agnostic_Alexa: I don't want to harm anyone

Agnostic_Alexa: shit shit shit

allez neva: but, you just harm yourself

Agnostic_Alexa: if you feel like

Agnostic_Alexa: you're scared and you have to back off before you're broken

Agnostic_Alexa: you're free

Agnostic_Alexa: to go

Agnostic_Alexa: anytime

Agnostic_Alexa: you don't have to tell me

Agnostic_Alexa: just go

allez neva: kamu terlalu berlebihan, Al

Agnostic_Alexa: if I start damaging you

allez neva: stop thinking that you'll harm me

allez neva: or i'll drown into insanity

Agnostic_Alexa...

allez neva: STOP IT

Agnostic_Alexa: I've damaged two persons for God sake

Agnostic_Alexa: one person has to go to psychiatrist

allez neva: and it's not your fault

Agnostic_Alexa: one person said she couldn't take it anymore

Agnostic_Alexa: not my fault?

Agnostic_Alexa: yeah right

Agnostic_Alexa: no wonder my boyfriend damaged me with his pain in our last relationship

Agnostic_Alexa: it's a karma

allez neva: stop blaming yorself

Agnostic_Alexa: ...

allez neva: gw punya amfetamin

Agnostic_Alexa: apa itu

allez neva: jalan pintas menuju ..............

allez neva: u know

Agnostic_Alexa: to die?

allez neva: iya

Agnostic_Alexa: you'll hand it to me?

allez neva: op kors...hahahahahaha

Agnostic_Alexa: awesome

allez neva: opp kors not

allez neva: sorry...it's mine

Agnostic_Alexa: which makes me even worrier

Agnostic_Alexa: take care

allez neva: hah?

allez neva: eh...u still there?

allez neva: dah shalat belum?

Agnostic_Alexa: ya

Agnostic_Alexa: nope

allez neva: lagi M?

Agnostic_Alexa: nggak

Agnostic_Alexa: ntar aja

allez neva: ohh i see

Agnostic_Alexa: bangsat ya gw. Forgive me God, I'm a lil bit mad at You

allez neva: everybody does

allez neva: me too,sometimes

Agnostic_Alexa: you know

Agnostic_Alexa: once, I made this "sumpah" to God, that if I achieved something I want, I would never never get mad at Him ever ever again

Agnostic_Alexa: I achieved what I want

allez neva: but you still mad to Him?

Agnostic_Alexa: but Lord, this year I lost my control

Agnostic_Alexa: can't help to say

Agnostic_Alexa: why did You do this to me?

allez neva: you and me,

allez neva: we just human after all

Agnostic_Alexa: yes

allez neva: we make mistakes

allez neva: and God always have mercy on us

Agnostic_Alexa: yes

allez neva: *serasa pendeta preman gini gw*

allez neva: wakakakakakakakak

Agnostic_Alexa: wew

allez neva:

Agnostic_Alexa: once or twice

Agnostic_Alexa: I hope there's no God

Agnostic_Alexa: but then

Agnostic_Alexa: if there's no God

Agnostic_Alexa: there's no more fear left in me

Agnostic_Alexa: you can kill yourself

Agnostic_Alexa: you can kill others

Agnostic_Alexa: you can fuck anybody you want

Agnostic_Alexa: there's no judgement day

Agnostic_Alexa: and that'll be unfair

allez neva: yup, we judge each other

allez neva: keadilan yang sujektif

allez neva: it's sucks

Agnostic_Alexa: human is truly awesome

Agnostic_Alexa: awesomely fragile

Agnostic_Alexa: awesomely bastard

Agnostic_Alexa: awesomely good

Agnostic_Alexa: awesomely stupid, definitely

allez neva: maybe... i dont know

Agnostic_Alexa: saya suka berkata2 aneh ya

Agnostic_Alexa: ahahaha

Agnostic_Alexa: gopakyorself Al

Agnostic_Alexa: so

Agnostic_Alexa: udah jadi

Agnostic_Alexa: cerpennya?

allez neva: hmm...dengan loe, gw seperti lagi sama Satria,temen gw itu

allez neva: radikal banget

Agnostic_Alexa: siapa itu satria

allez neva: temen gw

allez neva: i miss that man

allez neva: damn that man hahahahahaha

Agnostic_Alexa: oh bentar, tampaknya gw inget

Agnostic_Alexa: temen lo, bukan?

allez neva: yup, temen gw

Agnostic_Alexa: yang akhirnya pindah bukan sih

allez neva: akhirnya keluar

allez neva: yang pacarnya mati bunuh diri

Agnostic_Alexa: anjrit

Agnostic_Alexa: tell me more

allez neva: pacarnya seperti loe kurang lebih

Agnostic_Alexa: anjrit

allez neva: satria adalah "guardian angel" yang gagal

allez neva: poor satria

allez neva: gw lupa ceweknya klo gak salah gantung diri deh

allez neva: sepertinya dia menjadi seseorang yang gw kenal pas kuliah

allez neva: dia lahap semua buku2

Agnostic_Alexa: ...

allez neva: mau buku kedokteran,filsafat,psikologi,kimia,kalkulus,fisika modern, marxis,banyak banget

Agnostic_Alexa: wow

Agnostic_Alexa: kek gw, tapi tambah komik

allez neva: sampai gw bertanya ke dia : " sampai kapan,bro...? loe akan berlari? "

allez neva: dianya nangis

Agnostic_Alexa: berlari apa maksudnya?

allez neva: lari dari "janis joplin" nya dia (pacarnya itu)

allez neva: lari dari temen2, lari dari lingkungan, lari dari kenyataan

allez neva: temen2 gw yang sekelas bilang dia aneh, gokil,"sakit",gila etc

allez neva: hanya saja, mereka bukannya "merangkulnya" tapi malah mengucilkannya

allez neva: hidup ini kasar seperti yang loe bilang

allez neva: setengah mati rasanya bikin dia diterima temen2

Agnostic_Alexa: gitu

Agnostic_Alexa: untungnya gw orang bermuka dua

Agnostic_Alexa: kalau gw mati

Agnostic_Alexa: orang2 akan mikir

Agnostic_Alexa: Gosh, dia kan orang yang sangat pecicilan dan jadi badut semua orang

Agnostic_Alexa: kenapa tiba2 mati

allez neva: di satu sekolah satria

allez neva: yang kehilangan cuma satria

allez neva: atas meninggalnya cewek itu

Agnostic_Alexa: GILA

Agnostic_Alexa: si cewek itu parah banget ya

allez neva: yup

allez neva: i miss that man

allez neva: damn that man

Agnostic_Alexa: hehe

allez neva: eh koq jadi ngomongin orang?

allez neva: hehe

allez neva: gw punya beberapa tulisan dia yang "kelam"

allez neva: puisi sih

allez neva: gw juga gak tau,itu tulisan dia atau bukan

Agnostic_Alexa: I see

allez neva: " sejarah pribadi bentukku jadi

allez neva: pejuang tak punya cinta rasa

allez neva: kuludahi dan kuinjak injak masa kecil

allez neva: masa remaja, angan-anagan kutimbun

allez neva: tak tahu apa aku manusia, hidup mati rasa

allez neva: setiap orang kira dirinya adalah makhluk etika,

allez neva: estetika,

allez neva: heu.. gw lupa...

allez neva: hahahahahaha

Agnostic_Alexa: waw waw

allez neva: lanjutannya....

allez neva: aku bukan kau, anda, mereka pikirkan

allez neva: manusia bukan,

allez neva: iblis bukan,

allez neva: tuhan juga bukan,

Agnostic_Alexa: ...

Agnostic_Alexa: gila ih

allez neva: gw ulang yah...

allez neva: gw barusan bongkar2 arsip2 tulisan

allez neva: hehehehehe

allez neva: sejarah pribadiku bentuk ku jadi, pejuang takpunya cinta-rasa

allez neva: manis,getir satu, tidak lagi kurasa

allez neva: hilang, bagai debu ditiup angin

allez neva: kuludahi dan kubuang masa kecil

allez neva: masa remaja,angan2 kutimbun

allez neva: tak tau apa aku manusia?

allez neva: hidup mati rasa!

allez neva: manusia bukan,

allez neva: ilblis bukan,

allez neva: malaikat bukan,

allez neva: semesta bukan,

allez neva: tuhan juga bukan,

allez neva: who am i?

allez neva: setiap orang kira dirinya manusia logika,

allez neva: etika,

allez neva: estetika,

Agnostic_Alexa: ...

allez neva: ruang-waktu, surga-neraka,

allez neva: bukan tempat tanggal lahirku

allez neva: apakah aku meng-"ada",

allez neva: aku ti"ada",

allez neva: aku bukan yang kau, anda, mereka, semuanya pikirkan,

allez neva: bukan materi,

allez neva: bukan ruh,

allez neva: aku jarak,

Agnostic_Alexa: Lez

allez neva: non-ruang-waktu.

Agnostic_Alexa: actually, I'm not that complicated

Agnostic_Alexa: kepala sayah sebenernya agak pusing baca puisi dia

allez neva: gw enggak

allez neva: gw seneng malah

Agnostic_Alexa: kenapa

allez neva: kangennya gw ke dia jadi ilang

allez neva: tiap gw baca puisinya dia

allez neva: apalagi puisinya tentang psikologi bagong

allez neva: hahahahahaha

allez neva: sayang, kemana perginya tuh coretan2 dia yang lain yah?

Agnostic_Alexa: hehehe

Agnostic_Alexa: gitu ya

Agnostic_Alexa: keren jg lo

allez neva: loe yang keren mah,bukan gw

Agnostic_Alexa: apanya

Agnostic_Alexa: lo yang keren banget

Agnostic_Alexa: sangat tulus

Agnostic_Alexa: tulus

Agnostic_Alexa: bisa ngertiin orang2 yang "beda"

Agnostic_Alexa: that's really cool

allez neva: gw lagi menjauhi dia sebenarnya

allez neva: sorry banget ya,satria...

allez neva: di deket dia gw menjadi "liar"

allez neva: my thanatos A.K.A destructive side gw bisa meningkat tajam

allez neva: saya takut

allez neva: btw,

allez neva: dah baca comment gw belum?

Agnostic_Alexa: nah

Agnostic_Alexa: kan

Agnostic_Alexa: you see my point, dude

Agnostic_Alexa: you see my point

Agnostic_Alexa: it's dangerous

allez neva: gak lah...

allez neva: masih bisa control...

allez neva: maksudnya bukan menyakiti secara fisik, tetapi psikis...

allez neva: fisik mah cuma 25 persen

allez neva: alias begadang dan kesana kemari hehe

Agnostic_Alexa: ...

allez neva: psikisnya, pemikiran dia yang radikal...kadang jadi racun buat gw

allez neva: hahahahaha

allez neva: amfetamin aja kalah

allez neva: gw pertama kali dapet amfetamin dari dia

allez neva: sweet doping

allez neva: no problemo

Agnostic_Alexa: ...

allez neva: sudah dibaca comment gw?

Agnostic_Alexa: I hope I wouldn't cause that much damage to you

Agnostic_Alexa: I'll try to

Agnostic_Alexa: I'll try my best

allez neva: just be you aja

Agnostic_Alexa: to reduce my insanity

allez neva: stick together,Al...

allez neva: *serasa main counter strike*

allez neva: wew, loe liat FS gw ya?

Agnostic_Alexa:

allez neva: duh, jadi malu....

Agnostic_Alexa: yap

allez neva:

Agnostic_Alexa: tapi private profile

allez neva: hahahahaha


DAY 3 :


Agnostic_Alexa: hey Neva

allez neva: hmm...

Agnostic_Alexa: haha

allez neva: hehe

Agnostic_Alexa kamu terdengar aneh hari ini

Agnostic_Alexa: oh lagi stres

Agnostic_Alexa I see

Agnostic_Alexa: dadah

allez neva: iya, kamu menjauh dulu saja hari ini

Agnostic_Alexa okay

Agnostic_Alexa: will do

Agnostic_Alexa: tapi kalau kamu butuh sesuatu

Agnostic_Alexa: message aja/SMS/telp

Agnostic_Alexa terserah

Agnostic_Alexa: I'm here for you

Agnostic_Alexa: I'll be around

allez neva: butuh sesuatu? seperti apa contohnya?

Agnostic_Alexa: seperti orang buat dengerin kamu marah-marah

allez neva: ohh...

allez neva: okay

allez neva: will do

allez neva: kemarin saya minta obat tidur

allez neva: duh...tetep gak bisa tidur

allez neva: saat ini saya lelah secara mental

Agnostic_Alexa: kenapa atuh

allez neva: capek aja

Agnostic_Alexa: ada orang yang ngeselin kamu, atau masalah yang gak selesai-selesai?

allez neva: dua hal yang loe sebutin itu termasuk

Agnostic_Alexa: gitu...

Agnostic_Alexa: kamu gak bisa ngadepin dua masalah itu sekarang?

allez neva: apa saya bunuh aja itu orang yah?

Agnostic_Alexa: nggak nyelesaiin masalah, Allez

Agnostic_Alexa: Allez

Agnostic_Alexa: nggak usah tidur

Agnostic_Alexa: tenangin diri aja dulu

allez neva: haha...

allez neva: udah....

Agnostic_Alexa: nggak, kamu belum tenang

Agnostic_Alexa: minum air anget, rebahan deh

allez neva: benci banget gw klo sampe stuck begini, serasa lagi digebukin bencong tapi gak bisa ngelawan

allez neva: kemarin gw menunggu loe OL

allez neva: tapi, gak OL2

allez neva: makanya gw buka aja blog loe...

Agnostic_Alexa: hmm...

Agnostic_Alexa: terus

allez neva: ya gw baca2 aja

allez neva: cari kesibukan

Agnostic_Alexa:

Agnostic_Alexa: itu kan isinya depressing semua

Agnostic_Alexa aku ngisi blog kalo lagi depresi ahahaha

allez neva: iya, gw tau

Agnostic_Alexa:

Agnostic_Alexa: so, kalau lo lagi stres banget sekarang

Agnostic_Alexa: lo gak sendiri

Agnostic_Alexa: gw jg pernah, dan sering depresi

allez neva: kepala gw sakit bgt lagi ahh...

Agnostic_Alexa: it's okay, Lez

Agnostic_Alexa: tidur-tiduran aja

allez neva: gw mau pergi

Agnostic_Alexa: ke kantor?

allez neva: mau lari....

Agnostic_Alexa: penting banget nggak?

allez neva: entah lari atau mencari solusi,

Agnostic_Alexa: takutnya lagi pusing banget

allez neva: gw juga gak tau pasti

Agnostic_Alexa nyetir gak konsen

Agnostic_Alexa: hati-hati ya Lez

allez neva: yaudah, lepasin aja kemudinya

Agnostic_Alexa: aku aja, segimana2nya jg

Agnostic_Alexa: kalau lagi sediiih banget, biasanya naek bis aja

allez neva: kepala gw tuh sakit bgt,

Agnostic_Alexa: jangan aaah

Agnostic_Alexa: naek busway aja gimana

allez neva: lewat jalan di daerah parung, masih banyak tebingnya

Agnostic_Alexa allez

Agnostic_Alexa: you even haven't tattooed your back

Agnostic_Alexa: and you already die

Agnostic_Alexa: that's not fun

allez neva: jadi klo pusing, bisa brenti buat lihat pemandangan tebing

allez neva: sambil senderan

allez neva: di pohon

Agnostic_Alexa: okay, itu aman

allez neva: klo pusingnya gak ilang2 juga

allez neva: kelanjutannya dah bisa ditebak...

Agnostic_Alexa: allez

Agnostic_Alexa: setidaknya sebelum loncat

Agnostic_Alexa telp dulu ya

Agnostic_Alexa: let me try to help you first

allez neva: yeee....

allez neva: ihh, malas

Agnostic_Alexa:

Agnostic_Alexa: hehehehe

Agnostic_Alexa: baguslaaaaah

Agnostic_Alexa: seneng deh dengernya

Agnostic_Alexa: *hug Allez*

Agnostic_Alexa: *lepas*

Agnostic_Alexa: hati2 ya

Agnostic_Alexa: gapapa kok, you'll get through this, Allez

Agnostic_Alexa: you can make it

allez neva: i can take my friends problem away

allez neva: but for my case,

allez neva: it's something that iritating me so much

Agnostic_Alexa: atuhlah Allez

Agnostic_Alexa: jangan lakuin sesuatu yang kamu gak suka

Agnostic_Alexa: kalau kamu nyembuhin aku dan bilang

Agnostic_Alexa: "aduh, aku nyesel nyembuhin kamu. Aku jadi susah banget nih gara-gara kamu."

allez neva: no...

Agnostic_Alexa: itu bukan sesuatu yang mau aku denger

Agnostic_Alexa: aku gak marah

allez neva: salah tangkep

allez neva: salah paham...

Agnostic_Alexa: jadi?

allez neva: masalah gw sendiri, sangat2 sukar bahkan sulit buat dipecahkan...

allez neva: masalah orang lain terasa mudah

allez neva: itu saja

Agnostic_Alexa: Allez

Agnostic_Alexa: mungkin aku bisa bantu kamu?

Agnostic_Alexa: I'd really really like to help you, you know that?

Agnostic_Alexa: masalah sendiri memang suka terasa lebih berat

allez neva: kita ngebom kedutaan malaysia aja yuuk?

allez neva: setuju?

Agnostic_Alexa: jadi siapa tau masalah kamu jg bisa coba aku bantu selesaiin?

Agnostic_Alexa: ahaha, bukan itu maksudnya Allez

allez neva: bom nya di pasang di rompi

allez neva: gw pake rompinya

allez neva: loe pegang remote controlnya

allez neva: ntar gw masuk ke kedutaan

allez neva: begitu gw misscall, loe pencet deh remotenya

allez neva: menurut loe, loe bisa gak mencet remote itu

allez neva: ?

Agnostic_Alexa: Lez, gw tuh sukaaaaaaaa banget sama permainan kata2

Agnostic_Alexa: sometimes I love a sentence just because I love the way it sounds

Agnostic_Alexa: kek ini

Agnostic_Alexa: bomb something, anything.

Agnostic_Alexa: itu lucu banget LOL

Agnostic_Alexa: status gw sebelumnya kek gini

Agnostic_Alexa john loves mary. does anyone love me?

Agnostic_Alexa: itu ritmenya kena banget dan gw pasang jadi status

Agnostic_Alexa: orang2 jawab, "Al, I love you."

Agnostic_Alexa: but that's not the poiiint

Agnostic_Alexa: I don't like bombing

Agnostic_Alexa: I don't want to use you as my bomb

Agnostic_Alexa: I just love this status

Agnostic_Alexa: this sentence

allez neva: ya..

Agnostic_Alexa: jadi, don't take it seriously

Agnostic_Alexa: Allez

Agnostic_Alexa: semangaaat

allez neva: gw selalu semangat koq

allez neva: hmm..hari ini kita pake topeng vendetta lagi deh

allez neva: gw maksudnya

Agnostic_Alexa: JANGAN

Agnostic_Alexa: ah kauuuuuu

Agnostic_Alexa: suka gitu aaaaah

allez neva: full smile

allez neva: full metal panic

allez neva: wakakakakaka

Agnostic_Alexa: bullshit

allez neva: in jakarta, the wind doesn't blow, and it's suck..!!!

allez neva: wakakakakaka

allez neva: hoho

Agnostic_Alexa: bullshit, don't put a smile in front of me

allez neva: gw lagi tersenyum nih

Agnostic_Alexa: if you want to do so, back off, turn around, leave me alone

Agnostic_Alexa: it makes me want to puke

allez neva: yeee...

allez neva: don't be

allez neva: gw kan cerita ke loe...

allez neva: klo ke orang lain di kantor mah teteup, full smile...

allez neva: hey, koq membisu?

Agnostic_Alexa: oke

allez neva: aduh, jangan bete yah

Agnostic_Alexa: saya tidak sengeyel itu kok

Agnostic_Alexa: gak kok gak bete

Agnostic_Alexa: kemaren jg nggak

allez neva: ngeyel....?

allez neva: suka ngeyel?

allez neva: bukannya sukanya ngayal?

allez neva: ihh...suka plin plan deh...?!?!

allez neva: wakakakakakakakak

Agnostic_Alexa:

allez neva: *asli gw ketawa nih, lumayan*

Agnostic_Alexa: dasar

Agnostic_Alexa: allez tuh tukang ngeyel

Agnostic_Alexa: yeee

allez neva: rambut loe masih panjang Al?

allez neva: apa dah pendek?

allez neva: hehehehe...bercanda koq

Agnostic_Alexa: hoh

Agnostic_Alexa: rambut ketek?

Agnostic_Alexa: pendek

allez neva: GAAARRIINNGGG.....!!!!!!!!!!!!

Agnostic_Alexa: makasih

Agnostic_Alexa: saya seneng disebut garing

allez neva: ehehe

allez neva: wakakakakakakak

Agnostic_Alexa: wakwakwakwakwk

allez neva: najis...

allez neva: kemarin gw lagi nulis :full smile - mental depresive explosion (diriku yang lain adalah seorang psikopat)

allez neva: lagi asik2, tiba2 jam setengah 1 malam, dia nelfon gw....lama lagi hampir sejam setengah...

allez neva: pas beres dan mau nulis lagi, idenya dah pada kabur semua

allez neva: siake...!!!!

allez neva: nulis di blog gw

allez neva: banyak gangguan hehehehe...

allez neva: maunya sih menyendiri di sebuah gua di papua, hanya sayang, koneksi internet belum sampe sana...

allez neva: wakakakakakakakakakaka....

allez neva:

Agnostic_Alexa: okay...

Agnostic_Alexa: gimana kalau memang pas kamu mau nyendiri

Agnostic_Alexa: kamu matiin HP, matiin Y!M

Agnostic_Alexa: jadi cuma kamu ama blog kamu aja

Agnostic_Alexa: jadi peluang konsentrasi kamu buyar lebih kecil

allez neva: dia bisa marah2 tau, bisa kumat cerewet nya

allez neva: males gw

Agnostic_Alexa: kasih pengertian atuh

Agnostic_Alexa: bilang, kadang2 ada waktu yang kamu butuh sendiri

Agnostic_Alexa: gak lama kok, paling 2 jam

Agnostic_Alexa: gitu aja

allez neva: dia juga bilang kemarin : aku berasa gak enak, kamu gak kenapa2 kan,lezh...?

Agnostic_Alexa: Allez, dalam hub itu kan namanya kompromi, bukan full mengorbankan diri sendiri

allez neva: padahal mah gw dah ancur bgt...

allez neva: gw bilang aja : i'm fine....hehehehe....

allez neva: gila yah gw, sama pacar sendiri aja pake topeng

allez neva: edan...

Agnostic_Alexa: it's okay

Agnostic_Alexa: walau menurutku

Agnostic_Alexa: kapan2 kamu kasih tau dia jg

Agnostic_Alexa: when the time is right

Agnostic_Alexa she ought to know

allez neva: saya rasa dia sudah tau...

Agnostic_Alexa: when the things goes down

Agnostic_Alexa: at least she knows what happened

allez neva: karena cara dia menatap gw akhir2 ini semakin menjijikkan

allez neva: 'atau, dia tanya2 ke temen2 gw

Agnostic_Alexa: okay

Agnostic_Alexa: well, Lez

Agnostic_Alexa: aku percaya kamu tau yang terbaik buat diri kamu

Agnostic_Alexa: aku tau kamu bisa ngerasain, apakah tempat kamu di situ atau bukan

Agnostic_Alexa: kamu bisa ganti kerjaan, ganti apapun, ganti hidup

Agnostic_Alexa: kamu bisa

Agnostic_Alexa: tapi itu pilihan

allez neva: loe tuh ngerti banget perasaan gw kadang2

allez neva: saya heran dengan dirimu

Agnostic_Alexa: kenapa itu

allez neva: hal2 yang barusan loe ketik itu

allez neva: adalah isi kepala gw tiap hari

Agnostic_Alexa:

Agnostic_Alexa: then go get it

Agnostic_Alexa: go get what you want

allez neva: i can't right now

Agnostic_Alexa: there must be a way, Lez

Agnostic_Alexa: karena hidup yang tidak ada maknanya

Agnostic_Alexa: itu bukan hidup yang pantas buat dijalani

Agnostic_Alexa: make your days count

Agnostic_Alexa: make your life count

allez neva: socrates banget

allez neva: hehe

Agnostic_Alexa: buat orang yang suicidial kayak gw

Agnostic_Alexa: itu yang gw cari tiap hari

Agnostic_Alexa: gw cari, apa yang bermakna buat gw, yang bikin gw mendingan hidup daripada mati

Agnostic_Alexa:

Agnostic_Alexa: sometimes it's very simple

Agnostic_Alexa: temen aku pernah cerita

Agnostic_Alexa: Al, aku bosen ama kerjaan aku

Agnostic_Alexa: kreativitas aku kek terpenjara

Agnostic_Alexa: aku bosen ama rutinitas

Agnostic_Alexa: aku nyoba ngasih saran tersimpel

Agnostic_Alexa: ambil jalan ke tempat kerja yang beda ama yang biasa, sapa orang yang gak pernah kamu sapa sebelumnya, pake baju yang gak biasa kamu pake

Agnostic_Alexa: mungkin itu bisa bantu ngilangin boring

Agnostic_Alexa: kamu bisa mutusin lah

Agnostic_Alexa: good luck

allez neva: Al.....

allez neva: semua jalan sudah gw lewatin

allez neva: setiap orang disana dah gw sapa

Agnostic_Alexa: humm, apa kek, yang kecil2 gitu

Agnostic_Alexa: lo taulah

Agnostic_Alexa: misalnya makannya beda

Agnostic_Alexa: makan siangnya beda

allez neva: semua baju dah gw pake, yang belum cuma baju cewek aja

Agnostic_Alexa:

Agnostic_Alexa: apa keeek, ada kan yang kecil2 gitu

Agnostic_Alexa: lo tau sendirilaaah

Agnostic_Alexa:

Agnostic_Alexa: *hug*

allez neva: you know what...

Agnostic_Alexa: it's going to be ok

Agnostic_Alexa: ya?

allez neva: gw orangnya seneng jalan

Agnostic_Alexa: NAH

Agnostic_Alexa: *kek gw*

Agnostic_Alexa: YA UDAH

Agnostic_Alexa: jalan2

Agnostic_Alexa: beres kaaan

allez neva: gw pengen pergi ke tempat2 yang belum pernah gw datengin

Agnostic_Alexa: tekker tekker

allez neva: i must go der

Agnostic_Alexa: det is gud

Agnostic_Alexa: bai

Agnostic_Alexa: bai bai

allez neva: gud

allez neva: si...si....


DAY 4


allez neva: sakit kepala? paramex obatnya....

allez neva: numpang promosi

allez neva: jhihi

Agnostic_Alexa: aduh naskah gw buat film pendek ama tugas kuliah belum kelar

Agnostic_Alexa: aaaaaaaaargh

Agnostic_Alexa: apa yang harus gw lakukaaaaan tidaaaaaaaaaak

allez neva: terdengar seperti telenovela...

allez neva: apakah nona missy baik2 saja?

allez neva: perlu dipanggilkan tuan rudolfo

allez neva: wakakakakakakakak

Agnostic_Alexa: iya, panggil dia! SERET!

allez neva: oke, tapi karena gw kekencengan nyeretnya, pake mobil, tinggal kepalanya doang
allez neva: nih TANGKAP...!!!

Agnostic_Alexa: *Hup*

Agnostic_Alexa: *menyimpan kepalanya di kursi samping. menghela napas. melanjutkan pekerjaan*

allez neva: harusnya loe bersihin dulu darahnya,

allez neva: loe make up in biar agak enak dipandang

allez neva: trus tulis deh di kertas : " VICTIM OF A DOWN", loe tempelin di jidatnya

allez neva: ckk..ckk...keren....

allez neva: aahh, mau ketemu dokter, minta resep amfetamin...

allez neva: biar "semangat"....

allez neva: huuu...tampak seru....!!!!!

Agnostic_Alexa: ah elo

Agnostic_Alexa: gw juga udah berenti pake zat kimia kok

allez neva: i hate drugs

allez neva: but this, i'm even fall in love with amphenol...

allez neva: eh, amphetamine

Agnostic_Alexa: ah elo

allez neva: Amfetamin meningkatkan kesiagaan (mengurangi kelelahan), menambah daya konsentrasi, menurunkan nafsu makan dan memperkuat penampilan fisik.
Obat ini menimbulkan perasaan nyaman atau euforia (perasaan senang yang berlebihan).

Agnostic_Alexa: tetep aja

Agnostic_Alexa: pake drugs

Agnostic_Alexa: eat a pill or two

Agnostic_Alexa: tapi jangan jadi kebiasaan

Agnostic_Alexa: been there done that

Agnostic_Alexa: gw bilang ke nyokap

Agnostic_Alexa: gw gak mau ke psikiater lagi, gw pengen ke psikolog aja

Agnostic_Alexa: gak mau pake obat lagi

Agnostic_Alexa: gak mau overdose terus2an lagi

Agnostic_Alexa: capek.

allez neva: hehe

Agnostic_Alexa: rusak otak gw.

allez neva: Attention-deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD)

Agnostic_Alexa: sial, gw merasa gw sedang sangat santai

Agnostic_Alexa: ternyata hari ini, besok, dan besoknya lagi, gw udah ada schedule2 parah

Agnostic_Alexa: AAAAAAAAAARGH

Agnostic_Alexa: gw benci sibuk, benci nganggur jg

Agnostic_Alexa: harus gimana doong

allez neva: nongkrong ma gw aja di jakarta

Agnostic_Alexa: shut up

Agnostic_Alexa: asik jg tuh

Agnostic_Alexa: pengen gw sekali2 iseng ke jakarta sendiri

Agnostic_Alexa: takut nyasar tapi

allez neva: you really2 need a "true vacation"....



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